I was not prepared to be married or to meet that kind of guy. And I think also, meeting the person you're going to marry is also a big life changer. Honestly, it's taken the past few years for me to really unravel things and to find that kind of peace. And everybody's creating this fake, kind of happy existence for someone instead of actual sort of deep human connection. And it's almost like everybody's pretending. And I feel like I've seen so many relationships that have been based on something false. Take me higher, or this will expire.Įspecially if you're heavily engaged with social media and you've kind of put yourself in that world - I think it is really hard to separate yourself from that. GOULDING: (Singing) You're not really down for love. But I wanted the verses to, you know, really try and summarize this kind of superficial 21st-century relationship. "Power" was one of those songs that kind of had this euphoric chorus that everybody could sing along to. GOULDING: (Singing) Beautiful lies on a Friday night - starting to wonder where we lost our magic - head in the clouds - talking so loud. So even though you know certain things were wrong and certain things were unacceptable, like men feeling like they had a better opinion than you, you're so scared of, like, speaking up about that because it would mean you would have some kind of disadvantage from it. You're so scared of, like, taking what you have for granted and thinking that, you know, being in a position of, like, jeopardizing it. You let people, you know, patronize you because you're so scared of losing your position. You let people talk to you in a certain way.
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I think back then - and I think in so many situations when you're a woman, you just - you let things happen. GOULDING: (Singing) The brightest blue - tonight, give me the brightest blue. And I haven't really had a chance to really stop and think about that and also really haven't had a chance before to really understand who I've become as a human, as a woman. But then I also had a long time to have self-reflection and think about the past 10 or so years touring and releasing music. I felt like I had a type of loneliness living in a big city.
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Slip into the blue lagoons - I could be your muse. I love me more than you - doesn't mean I can't be true. That was all I want to be, a semi-precious mystery. GOULDING: (Singing) There's no blue in the odyssey, even in the calmest seas. Her latest, "Brightest Blue," was born out of her time living in New York City. SIMON: It's been almost five years since Ellie Goulding released a new album. And, you know, things have become blurred. I think I was just trying to figure out who I was. And so I think I probably took some time away for a while. I was - you know, I can see it in my performances that I wasn't good. And then I realized that I was not happy. GOULDING: And, you know, it was fun for, like, a minute. SIMON: Ellie Goulding was a certified pop star, but the glamour faded quickly.
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After years of open mic nights and posting music on that anyone could hear, Ellie Goulding finally got her big break in the early 2010s with hit after hit, like this one.ĮLLIE GOULDING: (Singing) You show the lights that stop me, turn to stone.